I Peed on a Stick and (drumroll..)


I’m still in SHOCK!

It’s only 8 days after a 3 day transfer, which equates to testing  at around 11 days past ovulation, or 3 days before a missed period which is still pretty early. I wasn’t expecting the line to turn so dark so fast. With Jasper I tested on the same day and you could barely see it!

My Beta HCG test (blood test to confirm pregnancy) wasn’t scheduled until Monday, but there was NO WAY I was going to wait until then a) because I’m too impatient and b) because it means going into the office early in the morning and waiting around minute by agonizing minute until they call you with the results that afternoon.  When I think of being told I’m pregnant or not pregnant by a nurse on the other end of the phone, and then calling Jeff with the good or bad news at work.. it’s just so CLINICAL.

I know that’s an odd thing to say because the whole IVF process is clinical, but this part, this one little part I wanted us to experience at home like a normal couple and either celebrate together or cry in each others arms.

Of course it still didn’t work out exactly as I had it in my head..

I woke up at 6am and had to pee SO BADLY that there was no way I could wait until Jeff and Jasper woke up at their usual 7am or so.  But I also knew that was early to test so it would be essential to use first morning urine.

So I tested.. and then when it turned positive I ran and dragged Jeff out of bed into the bathroom where I presented him with the two lines..

He was so bleary eyed it took him a good minute or so to register what I was showing him… those two lines that we’ve only ever seen one other time and probably will never see again!

I emailed my Dr. who told me to come in for the Beta blood test today, I will go back again Monday to see if the Beta HCG is rising appropriately. If it doesn’t, that means bad news for this being a viable pregnancy.  He also cautioned me that it’s still very early and I should only be cautiously optimistic. And my head KNOWS that.

But the fact is that with our BFP with Jasper I was SO scared in the beginning that I actually burst into tears at the Dr’s office getting my blood drawn for the second Beta test.. so scared that I couldn’t let myself enjoy the good news.

So yes, I KNOW there is SO much that can go wrong still, particularly at my age.  But I feel joyful, so even if the wise thing to do is guard my heart against disappointment, I want to enjoy this feeling of being pregnant knowing how hard we worked to get here and just bask in it for at least the weekend.

THANK YOU for all the positive vibes, prayers, well wishes or whatever you have offered up on our behalf.  Whichever way this goes, I am so very grateful for your support!!

PS: If you are the betting kind, when I was pregnant with Jasper the Giants and the Patriots played in the superbowl and the Giants won. I had a good feeling about our chances for this cycle when I found out the same teams were playing this year and I’m pretty sure we are going to have a repeat performance from the Giants. Being Giants fans that could all be wishful thinking, but we will DEFINITELY be placing some money on them to win – we are feeling very lucky :)

UPDATE: For those of you who know what these numbers mean, I just got the callback with my Beta. 112! OMG. With Jasper at 12 days (not 11 like today) it was 31.  GULP!

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Sarah says:

O.M.G! Congrats!!!!!! :)

Lauren says:

oh my gosh.. I have the chills and feel overly emotional for a baby of someone I have never met. I know the feeling of testing and waiting and am just vicariously experiencing your joy. I’m so happy to see the two lines! It is a great feeling.. isn’t it??? Yay!

Carolyn says:

Woot-woot! Congratulations! Here’s to this one (or more than one?) sticking around for a good nine months!!

Leena says:

That is wonderful news and a great way to start the weekend! I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Cathy says:

triplets or not, you BETTER be around in the spring for my Photoshoot!!! LOL!
Congrats from the bottom of my heart!! xo

Suzette says:

Congratulations!!!!!! So very happy for you!!

Kristina says:

I feel like I’ve been following your blog forever, but I never comment. Now seems like as good a time as any … CONGRATULATIONS! Absolutely awesome news.

Samm says:

Very, very awesome. Wishing you all the best.

AH! So excited for you! Congratulations. Sending you all kinds of good vibes for this pregnancy. And with numbers that high it looks like you could be giving Jasper more than one little sibling, squee!

Jenny says:

Congratulations! Praying for a sticky baby…or babies??? with that high of a beta!

Carlise says:

Yayayayayayay!!! Forget the superbowl I’m putting all my positive vibes on you for Monday!! Enjoy the weekend!! ((HUGS))

Yeessss!!! Congratulations. Such awesome news :)

Stephanie says:

Hooray!!!! I am so happy for you!

Michelle says:

Congratulations to all! What wonderful news!

CJ says:

I hope its not twins!! You don’t know what you are getting into! :) One at a time, is the way to go! :)

Brooke says:

While chances are very high you are not having a baby dinosaur-chances seem to also be very high with a beta value like that that more than 1 embryo took :) Congrats momma!

Mama Smith says:

What amazing news! I have loved following along with your story and thank you for sharing it. I know this is going to work out beautifully for your family! Of course being in Boston I’m a Patriot’s fan so we’ll see on that one :)Do the super high numbers mean a chance for twins?! That would be crazy!

Heather says:

Congratulations!!!!!!! Such happy news! I’m still thinking you’ve got TWINS!!!

pam says:

Huge congrats!!! Hmm, wonder if you’ll be joining my club? :P

Abby says:

Congratgulatioons! Don’t comment often but I am very happy for you. It took me years to get my bfp so I know how exciting it is to see those 2 lines!! Yay!!!

Susan says:


Sarah says:

That’s SO exciting! Congratulations!!

Kimberly says:

OMG!!!!!!! Yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
I am so completely thrilled for you guys!!! Much love to all of you from me, James & Matthew xoxoxoxo

kaley says:

Ah, conrgrats Ariana! I started to cry when I read this. I am sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Go Giants!

Bethany A says:

So happy for you and your family! Congratulations!!

Danielle says:

Congratulations! I remember that anticipation just like it was yesterday. I also remember the disbelief. Pinch yourself, it’s real!!

Sarah says:

So excited for you!!! Congrats!

vedjen says:

YEAH! Relish in the excitement — you deserve it.

Kristen says:

Congrats Ariana!!!

Jaymi says:

yay Congrats!!! I’ve been following your journey but havent commented before. Just had to come over and say congrats, SO excited for you!

shannon says:

sooo happy for you! congratulations!

Lourdes says:

This is the BEST news – how wonderful! So happy for you.

Jaimee says:

CONGRATS!!!! Long time reader (never commented before) but I had my fingers crossed for you. Congrats again!

October says:

That is so wonderful! I am so happy for you Ariana! I will continue to pray that it all goes well. :D And maybe the levels are so high because you have 2????

Chantal says:

YAY!!!!! So happy for you!!! Maybe the stick showed the results so fast because there’s more than one in there…? YAY ARIANA!!!

Yay! So exciting! Reading this reminded me so much of my BFPs — thank you :)

jbhat says:

Add another squealy OMG!!! to the chorus.

I am so thriled to read this news. Thrilled! For all of you!!


Amanda G says:

Congrats, wonderful news! And GO BIG BLUE :)

Lali says:

Omg!!!! So happy for you!! We just went through the same thing and getting that BFP was an amazing feeling. Congrats !!

Ava says:

I’m SO grinning ear to ear over here! Awesome news and I couldn’t be more thrilled for you.
Now, since you’re taking bets, what’s the line for how many stuck?

Fiona says:

Hi Ariana

I’ve followed this blog since Jasper was tiny. I haven’t commented thus far on your posts about your recent IVF, but I have been checking every day for updates!

I am thrilled for you, Jeff and Jasper. Thrilled to bits.

Sending lots of sticky vibes your way. Good luck and enjoy basking in your pregnancy – whatever happens, you’ll be glad you did.

Fiona xxx

Cara says:

Congratulations!!! I have never left a comment here, but have been reading for quite some time now! So very happy for you and your exciting news today!!! Maybe if this baby is another boy he should be named Peyton?? Go Giants ;)

Miz Booshay says:

How very very very wonderful.

Nina says:

OMG!!! Congrats! I got a little teary when I saw the stick! Maybe it turned so quick because there are twins in there!;)

Congrats again,so exciting!

Congrats! That is so cool and your story gave the the chills reading it. I love the Giants part at the bottom. I too, am always relating things to another. :) ENJOY your weekend!

Tracey M says:

Ariana, what wonderful news! Congratulations! Even if your Giants lose to my Patriots, you will still have reason to celebrate! LOL, I think the timing of it was just awesome!

Amy says:

I have tears in my eyes. So happy for you. Here’s to an easy pregnancy and all good things ahead. Congratulations!

Kelly R says:

I am SOOOOO happy for you! Ariana!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ariana says:

LOL, thanks Jill!!!!!! :)

SERIOUSLY I just screamed. OMG. Yay!!!!