I Peed on a Stick and (drumroll..)

February 3rd, 2012 by ariana

BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m still in SHOCK!

It’s only 8 days after a 3 day transfer, which equates to testing at around 11 days past ovulation, or 3 days before a missed period which is still pretty early. I wasn’t expecting the line to turn so dark so fast. With Jasper I tested on the same day and you could barely see it!

My Beta HCG test (blood test to confirm pregnancy) wasn’t scheduled until Monday, but there was NO WAY I was going to wait until then a) because I’m too impatient and b) because it means going into the office early in the morning and waiting around minute by agonizing minute until they call you with the results that afternoon. When I think of being told I’m pregnant or not pregnant by a nurse on the other end of the phone, and then calling Jeff with the good or bad news at work.. it’s just so CLINICAL.

I know that’s an odd thing to say because the whole IVF process is clinical, but this part, this one little part I wanted us to experience at home like a normal couple and either celebrate together or cry in each others arms.

Of course it still didn’t work out exactly as I had it in my head..

I woke up at 6am and had to pee SO BADLY that there was no way I could wait until Jeff and Jasper woke up at their usual 7am or so. But I also knew that was early to test so it would be essential to use first morning urine.

So I tested.. and then when it turned positive I ran and dragged Jeff out of bed into the bathroom where I presented him with the two lines..

He was so bleary eyed it took him a good minute or so to register what I was showing him… those two lines that we’ve only ever seen one other time and probably will never see again!

I emailed my Dr. who told me to come in for the Beta blood test today, I will go back again Monday to see if the Beta HCG is rising appropriately. If it doesn’t, that means bad news for this being a viable pregnancy. He also cautioned me that it’s still very early and I should only be cautiously optimistic. And my head KNOWS that.

But the fact is that with our BFP with Jasper I was SO scared in the beginning that I actually burst into tears at the Dr’s office getting my blood drawn for the second Beta test.. so scared that I couldn’t let myself enjoy the good news.

So yes, I KNOW there is SO much that can go wrong still, particularly at my age. But I feel joyful, so even if the wise thing to do is guard my heart against disappointment, I want to enjoy this feeling of being pregnant knowing how hard we worked to get here and just bask in it for at least the weekend.

THANK YOU for all the positive vibes, prayers, well wishes or whatever you have offered up on our behalf. Whichever way this goes, I am so very grateful for your support!!

PS: If you are the betting kind, when I was pregnant with Jasper the Giants and the Patriots played in the superbowl and the Giants won. I had a good feeling about our chances for this cycle when I found out the same teams were playing this year and I’m pretty sure we are going to have a repeat performance from the Giants. Being Giants fans that could all be wishful thinking, but we will DEFINITELY be placing some money on them to win – we are feeling very lucky :)

UPDATE: For those of you who know what these numbers mean, I just got the callback with my Beta. 112! OMG. With Jasper at 12 days (not 11 like today) it was 31. GULP!

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73 Responses to “I Peed on a Stick and (drumroll..)”

Jill @BabyRabies, on February 3rd, 2012 at 3:53 pm Said:

SERIOUSLY I just screamed. OMG. Yay!!!!
ariana, on February 3rd, 2012 at 3:54 pm Said:

LOL, thanks Jill!!!!!! :)
Kelly R, on February 3rd, 2012 at 3:56 pm Said:

I am SOOOOO happy for you! Ariana!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Amy, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:06 pm Said:

I have tears in my eyes. So happy for you. Here’s to an easy pregnancy and all good things ahead. Congratulations!
Tracey M, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:17 pm Said:

Ariana, what wonderful news! Congratulations! Even if your Giants lose to my Patriots, you will still have reason to celebrate! LOL, I think the timing of it was just awesome!
Jenny McMurtrie, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:23 pm Said:

Congrats! That is so cool and your story gave the the chills reading it. I love the Giants part at the bottom. I too, am always relating things to another. :) ENJOY your weekend!
Nina, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:28 pm Said:

OMG!!! Congrats! I got a little teary when I saw the stick! Maybe it turned so quick because there are twins in there!;)

Congrats again,so exciting!
Miz Booshay, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:35 pm Said:

How very very very wonderful.
Cara, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:38 pm Said:

Congratulations!!! I have never left a comment here, but have been reading for quite some time now! So very happy for you and your exciting news today!!! Maybe if this baby is another boy he should be named Peyton?? Go Giants ;)
Fiona, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:42 pm Said:

Hi Ariana

I’ve followed this blog since Jasper was tiny. I haven’t commented thus far on your posts about your recent IVF, but I have been checking every day for updates!

I am thrilled for you, Jeff and Jasper. Thrilled to bits.

Sending lots of sticky vibes your way. Good luck and enjoy basking in your pregnancy – whatever happens, you’ll be glad you did.

Fiona xxx
Ava, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:50 pm Said:

I’m SO grinning ear to ear over here! Awesome news and I couldn’t be more thrilled for you.
Now, since you’re taking bets, what’s the line for how many stuck?
Lali, on February 3rd, 2012 at 4:58 pm Said:

Omg!!!! So happy for you!! We just went through the same thing and getting that BFP was an amazing feeling. Congrats !!
Amanda G, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:11 pm Said:

Congrats, wonderful news! And GO BIG BLUE :)
jbhat, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:14 pm Said:

Add another squealy OMG!!! to the chorus.

I am so thriled to read this news. Thrilled! For all of you!!

jbhat
Amanda @ willful/joyful, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:22 pm Said:

Yay! So exciting! Reading this reminded me so much of my BFPs — thank you :)
Chantal, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:22 pm Said:

YAY!!!!! So happy for you!!! Maybe the stick showed the results so fast because there’s more than one in there…? YAY ARIANA!!!
October, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:28 pm Said:

That is so wonderful! I am so happy for you Ariana! I will continue to pray that it all goes well. :D And maybe the levels are so high because you have 2????
Jaimee, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:29 pm Said:

CONGRATS!!!! Long time reader (never commented before) but I had my fingers crossed for you. Congrats again!
Lourdes, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:38 pm Said:

This is the BEST news – how wonderful! So happy for you.
shannon, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:44 pm Said:

sooo happy for you! congratulations!
Jaymi, on February 3rd, 2012 at 5:53 pm Said:

yay Congrats!!! I’ve been following your journey but havent commented before. Just had to come over and say congrats, SO excited for you!
Kristen, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:00 pm Said:

Congrats Ariana!!!
vedjen, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:18 pm Said:

YEAH! Relish in the excitement — you deserve it.
Sarah, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:26 pm Said:

So excited for you!!! Congrats!
Danielle, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:28 pm Said:

Congratulations! I remember that anticipation just like it was yesterday. I also remember the disbelief. Pinch yourself, it’s real!!
Bethany A, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:36 pm Said:

So happy for you and your family! Congratulations!!
kaley, on February 3rd, 2012 at 6:49 pm Said:

Ah, conrgrats Ariana! I started to cry when I read this. I am sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Go Giants!
Kimberly, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:05 pm Said:

OMG!!!!!!! Yaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
I am so completely thrilled for you guys!!! Much love to all of you from me, James & Matthew xoxoxoxo
Sarah, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:13 pm Said:

That’s SO exciting! Congratulations!!
Susan, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:19 pm Said:

AWESOME! Just AWESOME. xoxo
Abby, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:24 pm Said:

Congratgulatioons! Don’t comment often but I am very happy for you. It took me years to get my bfp so I know how exciting it is to see those 2 lines!! Yay!!!
pam, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:28 pm Said:

Huge congrats!!! Hmm, wonder if you’ll be joining my club? :P
Heather, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:31 pm Said:

Congratulations!!!!!!! Such happy news! I’m still thinking you’ve got TWINS!!!
Mama Smith, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:55 pm Said:

What amazing news! I have loved following along with your story and thank you for sharing it. I know this is going to work out beautifully for your family! Of course being in Boston I’m a Patriot’s fan so we’ll see on that one :)Do the super high numbers mean a chance for twins?! That would be crazy!
Brooke, on February 3rd, 2012 at 7:56 pm Said:

While chances are very high you are not having a baby dinosaur-chances seem to also be very high with a beta value like that that more than 1 embryo took :) Congrats momma!
CJ, on February 3rd, 2012 at 8:07 pm Said:

I hope its not twins!! You don’t know what you are getting into! :) One at a time, is the way to go! :)
Michelle, on February 3rd, 2012 at 9:04 pm Said:

Congratulations to all! What wonderful news!
Stephanie, on February 3rd, 2012 at 10:39 pm Said:

Hooray!!!! I am so happy for you!
Jacqueline@MarblesRolling, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:02 pm Said:

Yeessss!!! Congratulations. Such awesome news :)
Carlise, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:02 pm Said:

Yayayayayayay!!! Forget the superbowl I’m putting all my positive vibes on you for Monday!! Enjoy the weekend!! ((HUGS))
Jenny, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:02 pm Said:

Congratulations! Praying for a sticky baby…or babies??? with that high of a beta!
Abigail @ Skywaitress, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:21 pm Said:

AH! So excited for you! Congratulations. Sending you all kinds of good vibes for this pregnancy. And with numbers that high it looks like you could be giving Jasper more than one little sibling, squee!
Samm, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:24 pm Said:

Very, very awesome. Wishing you all the best.
Kristina, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:33 pm Said:

I feel like I’ve been following your blog forever, but I never comment. Now seems like as good a time as any … CONGRATULATIONS! Absolutely awesome news.
Suzette, on February 3rd, 2012 at 11:50 pm Said:

Congratulations!!!!!! So very happy for you!!
Cathy, on February 4th, 2012 at 1:16 am Said:

triplets or not, you BETTER be around in the spring for my Photoshoot!!! LOL!
Congrats from the bottom of my heart!! xo
Leena, on February 4th, 2012 at 1:17 am Said:

That is wonderful news and a great way to start the weekend! I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Carolyn, on February 4th, 2012 at 2:14 am Said:

Woot-woot! Congratulations! Here’s to this one (or more than one?) sticking around for a good nine months!!
Lauren, on February 4th, 2012 at 2:26 am Said:

oh my gosh.. I have the chills and feel overly emotional for a baby of someone I have never met. I know the feeling of testing and waiting and am just vicariously experiencing your joy. I’m so happy to see the two lines! It is a great feeling.. isn’t it??? Yay!
Sarah, on February 4th, 2012 at 2:34 am Said:

O.M.G! Congrats!!!!!! :)
danielle, on February 4th, 2012 at 3:06 am Said:

Congrats!!! I too found out I was pregnant right before the Giants won their last Superbowl….we have a three year old boy named ELI!!! So maybe in another 8 months you will too!! Good luck babies for sure!!!
Farah, on February 4th, 2012 at 3:24 am Said:

Wishing you all the luck in the world Ariana! I’m so happy for you! : )
Wendy Rakvica, on February 4th, 2012 at 3:54 am Said:

OMG!!!!! YAYYYYYY!! I even texted my Sister in Law to tell her and to come on here and read this cause we both follow you! Im so happy for you and your family and its such a blessing! Also the numbers are HIGH WOAH! That must mean multiples? Im assuming! Good luck and god bless! XOXO!
christineous, on February 4th, 2012 at 3:59 am Said:

Congrats to you and especially Jasper because I know he’s been a very patient Big Brother in the making! I can’t wait to watch your family grow. I read your blog all the time. Although I’ve never been through IVF, something tells me those numbers are outrageous! You might have hoped for one more child, but becareful what you wish for, you just might get triple that! Haha. Enjoy your first prego weekend!
~momof6mejias
Karen H, on February 4th, 2012 at 4:12 am Said:

Yes! So happy for you! Congratulations!
jen, on February 4th, 2012 at 4:17 am Said:

Congratulations!!! I am so, so happy for you! And thinking every good thought I can.

Regarding betas… I had a very high beta at 9dp3dt and felt great. Then had a 69-hour doubling time (ugh.), followed by a 30-hour doubling yay!), then an 80-hour doubling (ugh.) We did a single embryo transfer, so no real chance of a vanishing twin. We were given very little chance of a viable pregnancy, but lo and behold, saw a heartbeat at 5w5d. I didn’t have another beta.

I’m 16 weeks now, have had several ultrasound and everything looks great. So, yeah, don’t do what I did and spend WAY too much time looking into those numbers.

Congratulations again and have fun celebrating this weekend!
Chrystal Cienfuegos, on February 4th, 2012 at 4:39 am Said:

I’ve never commented here but I’ve been reading for a while. I just had to say congratulations!!! I really love that you are allowing yourself to feel the happiness. :) I’m so so so happy for you.
vikki, on February 4th, 2012 at 5:01 am Said:

ARIANA!!!!!!!! I just read your fantastic news and I burst into tears! I’m hedging my bets on twins for you. You are going to be doubly blessed, I can just feel it. I can’t wait to see all your hopes and dreams come true.
Dulce, on February 4th, 2012 at 5:33 am Said:

Congrats! Happy and healthy 9 months =)
Amy, on February 4th, 2012 at 9:26 pm Said:

YAY!!! I am sooo happy for you. Like Vikki, I seriously burst into tears reading this.

PS-I’m betting on twins ;o) eeek!
Sandra, on February 5th, 2012 at 12:05 am Said:

Congrats!!! :))
Sandra, on February 5th, 2012 at 12:06 am Said:

oh, and WOW that’s a high beta. Twins? Triplets? ;)
Joanna, on February 5th, 2012 at 3:26 am Said:

OMG OMG OMG Good for you! Maybe TWINS! AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!!
Kari, on February 5th, 2012 at 3:28 am Said:

TWINS!! I am rooting for you so hard and have been keeping yo in my thoughts. I’m testing tomorrow at 13dpo and I hope I’m as lucky as you.
xoxoxo
Meagan K, on February 5th, 2012 at 2:26 pm Said:

Oh my goodness!! I am sooo excited to hear this news….I can’t wait to hear more good stories on down the road. Now, I ‘m not too familiar with IVF and what the Beta numbers mean, but if they’re that high now compared to Jasper…is there a chance for multiples?!? So excited! Keeping you in my prayers :)
spark, on February 6th, 2012 at 12:59 am Said:

Brilliant news Ariana! Lots of love and luck your way. xxxx
Lisa, on February 6th, 2012 at 2:36 am Said:

Congratulations on the high Beta! Since it’s so high right away, doesn’t that mean that there might be more than one growing in there?!
It’s nice to hear stories of when IVF is successful. I’m hoping to do a second round of IVF in the next few months.
Brenna, on February 6th, 2012 at 2:25 pm Said:

Congratulations, Ariana! This is such a wonderful way for so many of us to start the week. That may sound odd, since I know it’s a private journey for your family, but it’s been a privilege to be a part of it from the supportive sidelines. As the (MANY) comments will attest, we’re all so excited and thrilled for you. Best wishes for a safe and joyful pregnancy!
holly, on February 6th, 2012 at 3:24 pm Said:

WONDERFUL new! Congratulations!
yulie, on February 6th, 2012 at 4:29 pm Said:

Congratulations!!! So happy for you and your family :)
Alexandra, on February 6th, 2012 at 6:36 pm Said:

I’ve never commented before, but I’ve been reading your blog for at least a year now. I want to thank you for always being so honest and generous with your knowledge…I LOVED the posts about forgetting your camera/memory card on some of your first shoots. Hysterical. I live in Tucson but am from Brooklyn, and I just so enjoy your take on things. I am so incredibly happy for you and want to wish you the very best with this pregnancy. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you! I had two miscarriages before having my third baby at 40 (other kids were 10 and 7). You just never know. If you’re meant to have another little person, you will!!! Wishing you and your sweet family all good things :)
Sara, on February 6th, 2012 at 10:26 pm Said:

Wow, congrats! So happy for you and your family!
Marie, on February 8th, 2012 at 8:28 pm Said:

I’m so excited for you and your family. Congratulations!